Archive for May 11th, 2008

I won’t call them exactly dark, though I’ve had some bleak moments these last couple days. Besides family drama over my Mom’s website (this is going to be a long road, I think) my ankle/foot problem hasn’t left the building yet. Last Friday I finally made a doctor apt. for Monday morning, though I’m only seeing a nurse practitioner since my doc isn’t available. Here’s hoping he/she gives me the referral I seek.

This morning, it does seem better, but yesterday felt like I’d gone back in time, it hurt when I walked. While in my last entry I professed my OK-ness with taking one week off, the idea that this will be stretching beyond that is now becoming a teary situation for me. I feel like a zombie, wondering what the fuck is going on at the bottom of my leg and what to do before I lose fitness.

Nick would love nothing better than for me to pick up a bike, since that’s his sport of choice, but I’m really not drawn to it. I used to swim, but that sounds so mind-numbing after running’s ever-changing sights and sounds. I think what I’ll end up doing, if I have to, is join a gym so at least I can people watch while I do brain-dead machines. I always liked the rowing machine, maybe that’ll be my aerobic relief of choice.

Or maybe this is just a tendon issue that needs a few more days, but the weird heel-pinching I feel when I point my foot indicates otherwise.

So it’s Sunday, the day I was going to run again, instead I’m sitting here feeling the weight of the world despite the lovely temperature and all the birds singing outside the window. Or maybe because of it.

Sigh.